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[17 Jan 2007|07:51pm] new year, new lj: ABBIEBOT do it do it do it! ♥

[04 Jan 2007|11:26pm] [ mood | bored ] i don't have school until the 29th. i think. there are so many things i'd like to do and places i'd like to go to before i go back. but for some reason it just feels like i have no time. places i'd like to go to - griffith observatory!!!! - imax theatre - zoo - irvine spectrum (gay i know but i want to!) - hollywood/la area - san francisco - san diego - getty museum - la brea tarpits - downtown fullerton/orange - MORE! but i can't think. things i'd like to do - sell my 3 garbage bags full of clothes to buffalo - write letters to my cousins in the philippines - clean out my room/re-organize my furniture - put my thousands of pictures in albums - make hoodies - fingerpaint - start my new diary - start a food journal - get a gym pass/do my pilates at home - take more dance classes - register for more classes - MORE MORE MORE! ok goodnite. i'm tired. 4 waiting for ♥

[01 Jan 2007|11:17pm] [ mood | (why does it look like this?) ] ouch. my head hurts. anyways. 2007? no way. i still remember the whole Y2K scare. people built underground shelters and did all kinds of crazy things to "prepare" themselves. for the end of the world? ha. 2006 was a good year. time goes by so quickly! i'm getting old. i feel old. i look 12. i can't believe i'll be 20 this year. "hi i'm abbie, i'm twenty years old" my little cousin came over yesterday and she brought her friend. she asked how old i was and i told her i was 19. she was shocked. everyone is always so amazed when they find out i'm over the age of 15. do i really look that young? yes. oh well, when i'm 30 i'll look 20, suckas. what sorts of surprises does this year have for me? hopefully many good things. i hope to do well this semester. i'd like to work more, maybe find a better paying job like waitressing. even better, i'd like to work at a hospital. get some experience. i think i'd really enjoy it. i'd like to be more organized. i'd like to volunteer more!! help people! i want to go to church more i'd like to pray more i'd like to be more creative. i'd like to take up many different hobbies. i want to paint. i want to take pictures. i want to film things. i want to write. i want to write in my diary. i want to learn how to sew. and to cook. and to do all the things girls are "supposed" to know how to do. i'm useless as a girl. i can't do shit. it's quite sad. i want to dance more! i want to take dance classes. get better. become more flexible. i want to listen to all sorts of music. i want to learn about history. whenever i take history classes i'm always so interested in it, and then after i'm done taking the class i forget everything. i want to be a happier person. i want to be a better friend. i want to be a better girlfriend<3 i want to travel. i want to scuba dive the great barrier reef, and perhaps hunt down the stingray that killed dear steve irwin. i want to skydive! i want to surf. i want to skateboard. i want to snowboard. i want to ski. i want to feel comfortable with myself. i want to be confident. i want to meet new people. i want to be more aware about what's going on in the world. i want to help others. i want to save the world. as you can see, so many things i want. i'm and and and and and and and.. so many things i would want to happen. maybe not all in one year. but i want it all to happen someday. it will! <3 1 waiting for ♥

[31 Dec 2006|11:56pm] see you next year, livejournal. 4 minutes. no one to kiss. ♥

[31 Dec 2006|07:28pm] new years eve and i'm bored, yet again. i went to church today with the family. i feel bad that i hadn't gone in so long. i miss loving church. i hope to love it again. ramble ramble ramble ramble ramble ramble time. actually nvm, i have visitors. write more later. ♥

[29 Dec 2006|05:09pm] [ mood | blah ] i really hope i'm just pms-ing. i want to hang out with my friends a lot more. a lot a lot a lot a lot a lot a lot a lot more. i haven't hung out with anyone really in so long. i miss them. and i miss the random hang outs. i'm tired of seeming dependent. not even just seeming, but actually being dependent. i don't like the feeling at all. it's kind of annoying. i look at the way i act and think about the way i feel sometimes. and i wonder why i'm like this. i think i need to hang out with my friends more. a lot a lot a lot a lot a lot a lot a lot more. then i wouldn't feel so eh all the time if i'm alone and bored. i don't think this makes sense. 5 waiting for ♥

[28 Dec 2006|07:07pm] [ mood | bored ] i'm extremely bored. but i plan on sleeping in about two hours. i have to wake up at 4:30 am to open. gross. 1 waiting for ♥

[24 Dec 2006|07:30pm] [ mood | happy ] done at last! it feels good to know there is absolutley noooothing to have to study for. i haven't felt that way since the summer. gah. i was getting so tired of taking 18 units. m-f classes which included mwf 8am. a total of 8 separate classes. i'm exhausted. the grades i'll end up getting? who knows. one A for sure. the rest were all borderline A/B. i hate that. anyways. it's christmas eve and here i am myspacing it. am i the only one whose family actually celebrates it on the 25th? it's been a good christmas so far. and i know it isn't supposed to be about the presents, but so far that's what's making it so wonderful. so far i have gotten a hello kitty toaster, hello kitty waffle maker, hello kitty pencil/pen purse (yes i know, enough with the hello kitty already! shut up. i love hello kitty), and a digital camera. i figured out that one of the many presents julian got me was a pink ds! i feel bad for knowing what it is before actually getting it, but yaaaaaaaay! i've spent an assload of money on gifts this year, and it doesn't bother me one bit. i love giving. <3 me. ♥

[21 Dec 2006|08:06pm] [ mood | blah ] journalface. thoughts for the night. first thought: i'm fat. i need to lose weight. i wish it was easy. second thought: fuck yeah. finals are over with tomorrow. third thought: fuck. i still have one more final last thought: christmas is sooon!!!! last last thought: ilovejulian 6 waiting for ♥

[09 Dec 2006|03:15am] i know it's not your fault. but god. i'm annoyed. 4 waiting for ♥

[02 Dec 2006|06:49am] [ mood | confused ] um, i don't know how to change my LJ layout. 2 waiting for ♥

[18 Nov 2006|02:07am] [ mood | worried ] MOTHAFUCKIN CHRIS BASILIO IS THE MOTHER OF ALL LESBIANS 2 waiting for ♥

[29 Oct 2006|05:46am] [ mood | lonely ] i miss having friends. i mean, i have friends but we don't hang out. anymore. maybe i just feel lonely at the moment. meh. i know everyone's busy and all. heck, i know i'm always busy with school and work. i don't know. i don't know. i don't know. seems like i only get to HEAR about the things people have done, the places they've been to all the fun they've had, or will have. i listen to plans being made, but am never included in the plans myself. so i sit at home writing about my lame self. ok, that's the rant of the day. goodnight. 4 waiting for ♥

[26 Oct 2006|11:00pm] MY SCOOTER GOT JACKED! =( WHO STEALS SCOOTERS? FROM LITTLE ASIAN GIRLS!!!!! my life is OVER. 7 waiting for ♥

[24 Oct 2006|12:30am] [ mood | restless ] i really wish i had -my own printer -my own camera -an mp3 playaaaa -DS! mahaha. mama's cookin. -hello kitty bike -a nose ring gahhhh. the end. ♥

[21 Oct 2006|10:50am] i'm not heartbroken but that's how i feel </3 1 waiting for ♥

[20 Oct 2006|11:12pm] bamboozle was AMAZING i didnt think it was possible for me to fall even more in love with brand new, but i have. *orgasm ( <3 ) ♥

[13 Oct 2006|07:19am] [ mood | bored ] it's thursday night, technically friday morning. shouldn't i be out galavanting or something? no, i'm one of those cool kids with school on fridays. ew. actually, i dunno i don't really care. gotta do what i gotta do. i've been listening to brand new non-stop. i get to see them at last. sunday! t-minus 3 days. oh how i'm oh so excited! <3 school. hmm. it's alright. i though i was failing anatomy for suuure. turns out i have a B right now! i would have been surprised if i even had a C. i would nooot have been surprised with a D. but oh my, beyond excited. keep it up keep it up. and am i a geek for finding cadavers so amazingly interesting? eeee! nothing new, but i'm beyond obsessed with grey's anatomy. <3 6 waiting for ♥

[28 Sep 2006|08:33pm] [ mood | frustrated ] i've always accepted your opinions. you can think what you want. but when you make me cry like this, i don't know what to think anymore. 4 waiting for ♥

[26 Sep 2006|08:24pm] [ mood | tired ] i'm tired of studying. i don't want to learn about bones and cranial nerves anymore. no more anatomy. NO! i just want to ride my scooter all day, minus the part where my legs start to hurt. oh how i wish i had that cute hello kitty backpack! life would be much cuter with one. and i've decided i'm going to save up for that hello kitty bike. it's miiiiiiiiine! ahhh. why can't i lay on a cloud. maybe i should buy tons of cotton candy and lay on it. at least it would be edible. gah. but then i'd be alllllll sticky and whatnot. ewww. is it winter break yet? because i'm just about ready for it. i want it to be cold! i want to bundle up in layers of clothes and not sweat. i want to wear my red coat. bah. alright. back to reality and all of its goodness. 3 waiting for ♥

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